The Promise!

 

 

The night I saw you across the hall,

I ignored you like a complete stranger at all.

If I only knew you will enter my life with that first kiss,

And not a single day without your thought will ever go missed.

Your every single touch makes my heart beat the fastest,

And your every single word brings me calmness.
The distance between you and me feels like a million miles,

But my love for you will last till a plastic flower dies.

I think life without you will be pitch dark black,

The will to get closer to you is all I lack.

I am scared, I am lost, I need to make this decision of life,

And it hurts like my heart is getting stabbed by a knife.

You aren’t sure, you don’t know it yet,

But my feelings for you is something I can’t go let.

I don’t want to be the one who is always behind you,

I wan’t you to have your space and do what you like to do.

I just want to know do you want this or no,

And whatever your answer will be,

It won’t affect this hobo!

I don’t know if after a while ,

Whether you’ll be in touch with me,

And if you don’t….

….promise me you’ll remember me!

Hello?

Well…It’s been a while I posted something on my blog. I mean for me blogging isn’t something that I can just do it, like Nike! (that was a terrible one). Blogging is something close to me, where I can say whatever I feel to strangers out there and maybe they end up connecting to me. Well, If only connecting to people was that easy, mentally is a different thing, But emotionally is a whole lot harder. We try our best to connect with people we love, We admire and the people we lust for. Emotions are difficult to understand.. At times you are on cloud 9 eating candy floss and at times you are screeching your ears and screaming out for help. That person you love but are afraid to tell your story to, That person who is madly in love with you but you’re blind to see it. Emotions can make you dance and love yourself for no reason and at the same time emotions can throw you in such a depression where you end up fainting and start bleeding from your nose. It’s much harder doing it than saying “Go confess your shit to him/her” like…HELLO?? do you have some emotion called fear? fear of rejection, Fear of never seeing that person ever again, FEAR OF BEING LEFT OUT? It’s a game which you end up losing to yourself which goes on till forever like loop which shows you tears of blood and the darkest shadow which conquers you and never leaves you . I’ve been often told “you teens have seen nothing, life is much harder out there.”  Not that I don’t know about that but, I never see how that statement can help any teenager ever. Forget the love for your partner, the love you hold for your friend at times. where you can count on them embrace them, LOVE THEM! But the bitter truth is, no one can ever be with you ALWAYS! not your family members, not your loved one nor your friends! At the end of the day this world is a place Where you go Solo… Understanding this and digesting it is one hell of a task.. Love always brings surprises along, some show you the brightest star of the universe and some destroy you and shatter you on the ground like a ceramic plate. Think again, You aren’t connected to the person if you cannot read between those lines, feel what they’re feeling. Understanding facial expressions is something even a monkey can do. It’s time you let the person understand and know how you feel about it. Be honest and blunt (it’s the best way) rather than destroying a person 20 lanes down the way..It’s better you say it now to reduce the pain. Let’s not be cruel ( though is fun to be) but let’s start and end conveniently and enjoy this love!

….Hello? Do you hear me?

This Blog Post was pretty random, thanks a lot for visiting 🙂

Isn’t it funny?

Isn’t it funny when money is chosen over love?

Isn’t it funny when someone lives yet dies everyday?

Isn’t it funny when you are surrounded by your loved ones but yet lonely?

Isn’t it funny when everything is bright but dark within?

Isn’t it funny when you meet your love everyday and yet you can’t call it yours?

Isn’t it funny when you’re awake but yet lost?

Isn’t it funny when someone who means life to you calls you “worth of nothing?”

Isn’t it funny when a person is so hungry that the only thing he can eat, is  his hunger?

Isn’t it funny when people think the only stress teenagers have is regarding studies?

Isn’t it funny when you set higher goals and don’t work hard enough for them?

Isn’t it funny when you see another person in trouble and yet don’t bother to do anything?

well…Not really funny but it’s rather sad, absurd, hurtful etc. At times it’s the irony that hits the bulls eye. So it’s time to see the irony way.

Thanks a lot for visiting and reading 🙂

With Bare Hands Only.

Bare Hands Only!

Surrounded with family and friends and yet so lonely,
Trying to fight myself with bare hands only.
It feels like I am drowning in my feelings,
With nothing to support me, not even railings.
With life turning dark as black,
The power of support is all I lack.
I feel like a slave; the one who has no life meaning,
Banging my head on the wall, screaming out loud for some hearing.
Everything seems blue with me choking on my own breathe,
With life goals filled with holes are being the reason for my death.
I am stung by my mind and can’t think further,
All paralyzed waiting for myself to render.
That void of frowning and tears which never closes,
All the energy I have ever gathered,
have fallen on the floor and has been shattered.
I won’t give up, I won’t die,
Because, I know this is all a lie.
Surrounded with family and friends and yet so lonely,
Trying to fight myself with bare hands only!

This is a poem written by me. Thanks for visiting and reading 🙂

The stories Behind the Medals.

    “Today I will run what you will not so that tomorrow I will run what you cannot”

Every object has some value. The Television u watch, the car you drive, or the cellphone you use, etc. But there are few objects which You can’t buy. I’m not talking about emotions here, I am talking about objects. Like the trophy you win after winning a contest, The certificate you get after completing a course.

I would like to talk about medals. But not just any medals. These medals are earned after running killometers of track. After training for more than a year, and after running hundereds of killometers. Yes, I am talking about the marathon finisher’s medal. Running a marathon is a great achievement in itself and finishing is another. It’s not as easy as it sounds. It takes great endurance, strenght and most of all a will to run.

Marathoners don’t run for the sake of running. They run for a cause for which the marathon is held, they run for their health, they run along people who they are trying to make run, and most of all they run to enjoy the run! It’s a beauty to be one of them.

Let me tell you what I’ve experienced. As I like running I joined a running club called , Lokhandwala running club (LRC). On the Very first day I went for a 6km run as I was used to run that distance. But during the run I noticed something very different and learned something new too. As I was running with my group I could see other random people running along the streets. They started cheering the random people. Clapping, cheering and motivating each other up. I learned, “to be a runner you should know to respect other runners as well” and my entire perpective changed about a way of life.

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Recently Mumbai’s biggest marathon was held. The Standard chartered Mumbai Marathon (SCMM).But I couldn’t participate as I was underage to run, But almost every person from the group went for it. Just 2 days before the big event I met everyone as usual for the daily run and boy Oh boy! I wanted to run the marathon so bad. The positivity and the surrounding is so energetic I cannot even explain. After they returned from the marathon. I asked few of them to tell me their experience in brief.

So here I have few words shared by the actual Marathoners who did Half Marathon(21km) and the Full marathon (42km)

1) Nivedita Desai:

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After 10 years of running 11 half marathons and 2 full marathons, I felt I was in prime form. But one seemingly innocous muscle pull completely derailed me in mid training. SCMM 2015, the year was to be my personal best, became a gruelling battle of will, of mind over body, which I wowed to conquer even before the start. My mind was resolute as I started across the start line and felt ready for anything. After cruising along for 15 km, the body started giving up. I carried on in a run-walk style, ignoring the pain, focussing only on crossing each km milestone, until I reached the finish line. I felt elated! I had finished in 6:43, what was my most challenging race!

I had seen another side of SCMM, with glimpses of people’s kindness and encouragement, camaraderie amongst fellow runners, the support to first time runners I felt blessed and thankful to my family and friends for the love and support that got me through a race that almost never happened.

2) Irfan Mohamed

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“I missed my chance in 2009 of running a small distance at scmm, basically the dream run, which was dream for me. Come in 2014, I saw that the stanchart mumbai marathon in 2015 will be on my birthday, hence I promised myself on my 28th birthday tat come what may, on 18th January 2015 I will go the distance of 21kms……
The day arrived with wishes pouring in frm twilight time, friends family all wishing me on my bday. But I was too too tensed, as I have never done a half marathon distance even in training, solely cos I wanted to do it on my bday. The run, cant say much cos it was more of a celebration emotion going on in my mind where in I was remmbering what everyone who has run scmm telling, enjoy the run it brings out the best of the city in terms of support, cheering and mostly runners world…..I started at my usual pace, maintaining itall along till half way mark…..its like a sea of runners, where only u see runners of all age groups of all races running side by side…..timing matters onky for those who are professionals but amongst the participants, more than 60% are those who have running as a passion…..they are doctors vendors businessman actors even dabbawallahs…..
But mostly they are mumbaikars and me myself being a mumbaikar felt proud of running the STANDARD CHARTERED MUMBAI MARATHON HELD ON 18th JANUARY 2015….., on my birthday……I could have started my day in a better manner, my first ever 21.097kms in a good time of 2hrs and 20mins…….with fun along the entire route and a smile on my face…..I cherish the medal that I received for completion and the bib, its gonna be a memorable one for me……truly passionately I will keep running for my life……as I am an LRCian………”

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well..as you saw, those are two of the thousand’s of inspiring stories you got to read. So what are you waiting for? Grab your shoes and get ready already! The more you run the better it is 🙂

An Apology.

When I first met you my life turned upside down,My heart skipped a beat,

And it felt as beautiful as a rose blooming on a completely wrecked ground.

It was a like a new hope of friendship which I desired,

And my life from the sad town completely retired.

Your smile can cure zillions of frowns,

And it is as beautiful as a queen in her royal gown.

I cherished every moment with you,

And smiled every second when I thought of you.

But, then came a time when I did something wrong,

And the beautiful friendship was completely gone.

You had a reason to not trust me,

And everything happened because of me.

Finally I got the courage to write this poem and dedicate it to you,

And tell you how sorry I am to do this brutal thing to you.

I don’t know whether you will ever talk to me or no,

But I do know that you will forgive me one fine day.

I Wish you all the best for your life,

and I know you will rock and ace it!

because you know to Grace it!

This is a poem for a person I have done wrong. Thanks for visiting and reading 🙂

A REALITY CHECK!

“…There are too many idiots in this world. And having said it, I have the burden of proving it.” -Frantz Fanon.

This is a Reality check for some people who can’t withstand the following events. So I wrote this post with few facts which they really need to know so they can open their eyes and mind and see the world the way it should be seen and not the way they want it to be!

 

1) What’s the harm in skirts of short cloths?

It’s really unfortunate when people say, you can’t wear skirts or a girl can’t dress in a certain way. Are we going back in the dark ages?”

 

I do not understand why do people have negative thoughts about a girl who wears short clothes! Don’ t they like to dress up and feel good when they go some place nice? It’s a normal girl under those clothes who is trying to look pretty, feel nice and lives a normal life like they do. People call her slut,shameless or ugly! That’s not going help her in any way. People need to know that everything is perfectly fine with her, just the difference is they are wasting their time and energy spreading negativity and she is happily enjoying her life!

 

2)Strength of a rape Victim!

“I just want to sleep. A coma would be nice. Or amnesia. Anything, just to get rid of this, these thoughts, whispers in my mind. Did he rape my head, too?” -Laurie Halse Anderson,

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Have you came across a person who is a rape victim? I have, and let me tell you  she is one the bravest person I have known in my journey. She is 21 years old and went through the incident when she was 17 years old. Getting raped at such an early age she had to go through a lot. At her college people mocked her, the society called her names and what not! But she never lost her confidence and her will power to stand back on her feet and show everyone she is still the same girl. She kept ignoring such people. At times she broke down but her family and close friends were the one who held her up! And now she works for 10 NGO’s and helps people. She is a reason for hundreds of people’s smile.So, next time you come across such a person rather than feeling sad or giving sympathy to the person or thinking wrong about her, feel proud and get inspired and respect her for her willpower and hard work which many of us lack!

 

3) Do You Call Yourself A Man?

“Part of being a man is to take responsibilities for your success and your failure”

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“Man” when you hear this word the you might start thinking of a man who is strong, Charismatic, built up and rich! But is this really what a man is?? A person who vows to protect his girl and then abuses her at home is that a man? When a person who loves his girl, his mother and his sister and then rapes a unknown girl  is that a man? When a person needs help and the person just walks by, is that a man? A man is a person who respect’s women, knows his limits, knows to use his words and knows to take responsibilities of himself and his family. So, next time you see a person who lacks these qualities, that person is not a “Man” but a “Male”

 

4) Social Sites Ranters!

“The production of too many useful things results in too many useless people.”

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So here I present You all, The most jobless people on the entire earth. wait…In the entire universe!  These people will spam your news feed with posts like..“share if you care” “don’t do the ALS ice bucket challenge” “Like if you care” etc..But in reality they don’t do damn thing for any of the cause. They will probably give you an hour lecture on how bad plastic is for the environment and they are the same people who buys plastic bag from the grocery shop. They will post statuses  about “stop rape” But when there is an actually rally for it to make the laws stronger for rape cases they will probably sit at home browsing the internet and sipping their coffee. For such people I have a message. “GET REAL! stop living in the virtual world and come out and actually do something humanity. And if you can’t do anything then please shut the F up!”

 

5) Being Gay Isn’t A Sin!

You know, gay, lesbian, bisexual, transgender – people are people” –Judith Light

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Have you ever loved someone? I am sure you have. But the question arises, with the person of same or opposite sex? You will probably get angry and reply, ” obviously! opposite sex.” Let’s focus on that anger for a moment. Is there anything wrong if someone loves a person of same sex? I don’t think so. Feelings are bound to get attracted for someone. The person is “Homosexual” so what? he is just a normal person who loves a person of the same gender. He dreams of becoming something like you do, acts and reacts the way you. People mock such person, tease him, bully him and call him names. At such a point the only thing i can say is, “These people are blind and can’t see the world beyond that curve which earth has.Their vision is limited.” And as person religious point of view, it also says “don’t use condom” but is that healthy? Of course not!I am not offending any religion but trying to prove a point here. Being Homosexual is not something bad or wrong, Some people really need to know this fact! You really need to know that, people can love whoever they want. You should only have a problem when the person does something to you which is less likely to happen. I hope each and every country passes the LGBT rights in this coming decade. AND PEOPLE, OPEN YOUR EYES!

 

I didn’t mean to offend anyone here! Please share your thoughts about the post in the comments and do let me know about any corrections. Thanks for visiting and reading. 🙂